The Trust Factor

Another day of “fun time of the year”goes by without our Zack.

Another day of smiling when I feel like crying goes by without our Zack.

Another day of putting one foot in front of the other goes by without our Zack.

Another day of watching a little brother miss a big brother and live with his own fears.

A writing assignment Nick completed about what he would do with $100.

Another day of trusting God without our Zack.

And sometimes trusting God tastes a little like fear…

But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in you. Psalm 56:3

Trusting doesn’t mean we will get what we want.

Or even what we think we need.

I wish it did.

But isn’t trust the very basis of faith and that faith leads to God?

The truth is that I cannot boast of my faith in God, I can only boast of HIS faith in me.

Faith in me. Faith in you.

And he is worthy of my trust, all the time, in every situation and through every outcome.

In you, Lord my God, I put my trust.~Psalm 25:1

And we may think we trust God…

But when our circumstances come crashing down on us, it is only then that we become truly aware of our level of faith in HIM but more importantly – HIS faith in us.

If you are struggling to trust God, I encourage you to meditate on God’s love for you. John 3:16

It is out of His love for you and for me, that we can trust Him at all times. He is a faithful father and everything I need, we need, on this day.

This day.

This day where I passed out candy to many of Zack’s friends. And I smiled and cried…

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter:
“Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.” The little girl said:
“No, Dad. You hold my hand.”
“What’s the difference?” Asked the puzzled father.

“There’s a big difference,” replied the little girl.
“If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.”

I am so thankful HE holds my hand…

May God’s grace and peace lead you as you put ALL your trust in Him.

We miss and remember Zack and find joy in today a moment at a time…

A year ago today….

A year ago today, our lives changed forever. It was a beautiful morning….similar to this morning. I met my friend Tracey at Wrightsville Beach for some exercise, talking and a beautiful sunrise.

Later that morning we stepped out of our lives to begin a journey I would have never thought I could survive. We have learned a lot about life, death, love and faith this past year. We have learned a lot about ourselves, about others and about God.

I am so thankful for the extra time we had on this Earth with Zack….he was gone that morning but came back to us. I am so thankful that God gave him to us. If this had to happen to Zack, I am so grateful God chose us to be his parents so that we got to love and care for him during his courageous journey.

Some would think that our journey is over but we feel God leading us, encouraging us on in this journey that has really only just begun.

We will celebrate Nick’s birthday early with a fun (surprise party – even though he knows about it he is calling it a surprise) pool party in our backyard tomorrow. Many of Zack’s friends are coming to celebrate with us. I think it will be a bittersweet day for all of us but Zack will live on through everything we do. Nick is very excited and I am very happy to see him so excited. This week has been especially tough on our little guy who is so missing his big brother.

We will leave Wilmington Saturday to visit our family in Pamlico County and to celebrate our nephew Ryan Mayo’s graduation from high school. Then we will say our good byes and leave in our motor home for destinations known and unknown. We aren’t really sure when we will be back….we are looking to have some great time with Nick and with God and wait and see what he has planned for us next.

I have started a blog (I’m new to blogging so bear with me as I learn) and welcome you to follow along with us on our journey of healing and discovery. People have said to take it one day at a time….we aren’t there yet. We are taking it a moment at a time and that is the best we can do for now.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; ~ Proverbs 3:5

Thank you for continued support, encouragement and prayers for all of us….