Hand-me-downs. A link to yesterday.
What our heart has once known, it will never forget…
I open the plastic tub marked size 8. Saved clothes for a little brother. An older brother always hesitant to surrender his outgrown clothes.
Are we willing to surrender?
In a few short years, Nick will be out of hand-me-down clothes. He will have passed the last size his brother would ever wear.
Jeans and shoes were never saved…only worn out. Surrendered only out of necessity. Zack put them always to maximum use. Playing and living every moment to the fullest.
I gently unfold the shorts. Shirts.Pajamas. Bathing suits. I close my eyes and remember. I almost forget to breathe. So far away – yet always with me.
These clothes. These hand-me-downs. These saved and surrendered clothes. They touch me because they touched him. So alive with him. His things that only tell part of his story. These things that we can hold in our hands.
“The past is not a package one can lay away” ~ Emily Dickinson
These saved clothes bring joy to Nick. He loves hand-me-downs from Zack. They are “cool” clothes. His brother’s saved and surrendered clothes.
These saved and surrendered clothes bring no tears today. They bring smiles to me. And to Nick.
A shirt takes me back to a place and a time. A memory.
A shirt brings Nick to the present and to the future. He will wear the fabric that touched his brother. A fabric worn with love…woven by the fine thread of a memory.
The past, the present and the future all becoming one. All becoming today.
Living in the moment of a memory. Making a new one.
Does love of our past give us faith in the future?
“For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope.” ~ Romans 15:4
Our past brings us to where we are but we must be present in the moment. Right where we are. In the middle of these saved and surrendered clothes….where our hands and our hearts touch a piece of the past and hope for the joy in today.
This life is but for a moment, a vapor. And then it is gone.
Saved and surrendered?
How else can we live fully in the present moment? Saved. Surrendered.
Willing to surrender. To do the will of God. Willing to love even when we don’t want to love. Willing to serve even when we do not feel like it. Willing to be kind, gentle and patient when we feel tired, cranky and impatient.
Setting aside self. Making choices consistent with His word. Searching for ways to honor and glory Him in the midst of our trials….in the midst of life when we are scared and don’t feel like it.
We must surrender to live fully in the present moment.